Hold on
Sometimes it's hard to remember why I should keep breathing.
It's hard to see the bright side of letting my heart continue to beat.
How can a self-destructive person offer anything to this world?
During the moment when you find yourself standing on the train tracks.
On the edge of the terrace.
Fixated on the handful of pills.
Pull out a reason to hold on.
I know that choosing to stay feels like giving up.
I know there's only so much we can take.
There's only so long that people like us can live in our own heads.
Last night I had a handful of pills in my palms. Cool to the touch of trembling fingers.
It was hard.
But I just need to make it through one more day.
As if one more day is the whole picture.
And if you just look at one day.
Holding on doesn't seem as unbearable.
So I put the pills away and told myself to hold on.
Hold on for Marc
For Susannah
Samuel
Audrey
Ofelia
Tom
Jeff
Matt
Amber
Blythe
Allison
Lita
Jes
Arnavi
Nija
Kim
Cy
Mom
Dad
Massa
Massi
Afifah
Gene
Rekha
Lily
The list goes on and on
So just hold on
Find a reason to tighten the grip on your pulse.
It doesn't always have to be for you.
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